Assalamu alaikum/greetings, I’d not planned for this blog to turn
into a pregnancy/baby update blog, but I suppose, as this is the
dominant thing in my life right now, the blog will probably be going
in that direction just because of that reason alone. Although I
don’t plan on boring people too much with pregnancy, parenting,
and babies lol. But anyway…
My next doctor’s appointment is next week, Inshallah. I’m hoping
this diet that I’ve had to follow for gestational diabetes is working
and that my blood sugar is OK. And that of course, Inshallah, that
everything else is going OK too.
Two “pregnancy symptoms” that I’d not yet experienced and that I
just have experienced this week are the infamous leg cramps,
which I got this morning when trying to stretch my legs, and the
also-infamous bladder pressure, which is starting to make me
think I need to invest in some Depends undergarments or
Baby is still finding new places to kick me, not only in the bladder,
but also in the ribs as well, and this week is the first time he’s
done that too. As “the book” says, he seems to be getting bigger,
and his movements can be quite “uncomfortable” for lack of a
better word. I’m starting to find that, as so many women have
before me, pillows and cushions can be your best friend lol.
A couple of things that have me on the defensive, though, are my
“readiness” or lack of it, for the new baby, and whether or not I
will be partaking in any form of pain management during my labor
Regarding the “readiness” part of it, I’ve either been asked if I’m
ready or told, in a what seems to me to be a rather patronizing and
condescending tone that “I’d better hurry up and get ready”. My
reaction is kinda along the lines of “hey you can’t expect me to be
as quickly ready as say someone who found out they were
pregnant at 10 or 12 weeks or so”, and “it’s not like he’s coming
tomorrow”, I mean, maybe he might be, but I don’t think so, and in
any case, I’m just not feeling up to rushing around and buying
things before they’re needed.
I won’t be setting up a room/nursery for him right away, as he’ll be
sleeping in my room for at least the foreseeable future after he’s
born, and I’ve got plenty of places in my room to put his things,
i.e., clothes, diapers, wipes, etc. And besides, just like for myself,
I don’t like a lot of clutter, I like having just enough of what I need,
I’m not the kind of person who has boxes of shoes I’ve never
worn, or closets full of clothes that I’ve never worn. I have a few
outfits, some for work, some for walking, some for working in the
yard, I have a pair of work shoes, “taking the dog outside shoes”,
and walking shoes. I have my “nice scarves” and my “I’m just
running outside” scarves. And I think you get the picture. I’m a
simple person. I don’t want to be extravagant all of a sudden just
because a baby is on the way and in any case, I don’t think he’s
gonna care what kinda stuff he has as long as he’s fed, changed,
And on to the “pain management” part. Suffice it to say that I’d
like to try labor and delivery with no meds, if I can. And you’d not
believe some of the reactions I’ve gotten. Which seem to me to
be somewhere along the lines of “hey you don’t really know what
your talking about” and/or “it’s the worst pain you’ve ever felt how
could you not want any meds”. Firstly, I’ve never had a child
before, so I don’t think I could 100% say that I’d not want that
epidural when the contractions are coming thick and fast, but what I can say is that if I can help it I’d not like any meds. Because to put it simply, to me there’s a big difference between giving birth and having a toothache, and I’d like to have as active of a part in delivering my baby as I can, any problems notwithstanding. And if I try to explain why I’d not want any pain meds, because I feel like since I can’t see what is going on, I’d at least like to feel it, I don’t think most people would understand anyway.
But I’m just surprised at how, how do I put it, “interesting” people’s reactions can be when you are not as ready for your baby to come as they think you should be, or your ideas about delivery and childbirth are different from theirs. And I’m starting to think that perhaps I should just get used to it, because I’m sure these kinds of reactions probably are not going to stop once the baby comes.
But if it’s any consolation to anyone, I think me and my brain have finally come to the realization that I am actually pregnant, and that this is not going to be a dream that I’m going to wake up from, and that this is actually happening. And I’m starting to get excited. I’m starting to wonder what kind of baby I’m going to have, what kind of personality they will have, what they will grow up to be, what kind of food they’ll like, will they like animals, will they play sports, etc. And part of me wants him to wait and part of me just can’t wait. Oh yes, mixed feelings abound *smile*.
The odd thing is, I don’t think I’m scared of labor and delivery, a part of me kinda is, but when I think of it, I don’t want to go so far as to say it’s no big deal, but at the same time, it just feels, well, kinda “normal” for lack of a better way of putting it.
But then again, my mentality throughout this whole pregnancy, even before I knew I was pregnant, has been very calm, and patient, and just taking things as they come. And for the most part, aside from some worrying and misgivings once I actually found out, things have continued in that way, and I just don’t see things changing. I suppose I’ll probably take labor the same way I’ve handled the rest of the pregnancy, just being calm, cool and collected, Inshallah. And I guess if the pain does indeed get really bad, I can make the decision whether or not to partake of any relief.