running Away from 9/11

Assalamu alaikum/greetings, I will not be watching any of the numerous 9/11 programming/commemorations on TV and radio this week. In fact, I’ve avoided a lot of TV and radio this week, just so I won’t have to hear about it. And truthfully, I’ll be happy once 9/11 has passed. And the reason is simply that there’s nothing I really want to remember about that day. And it would kinda feel like to me that I was reopening a wound that has healed.

Because a few things I can distinctly remember about that day are how scared I was, how I was at my parents’ house all by myself, feeling as though I was watching the worst bad dream I’d ever had come true right in front of my eyes. I remember getting calls and instant messages from people asking me where I was, and when hearing that I was at my parents’ house, telling me to stay there and to not go out of my house as they were hearing reports of women in hijab being attacked.

I remember being told by people to “go back to your country” or “go back to where you came from”, and thinking, hey I’m an American, I have a right to be here, and even if I wasn’t I still have a right to be here and in any case, where am I going to go? What country should I supposedly go back to?

I remember still being relatively new to Islam, and feeling how the terrorists had kinda taken something away from me, how they’d taken such a beautiful religion and made somethign so awful out of it. and no I’m not going to get into whether or not we’re getting the real story about 9/11, I’m addressing the “official” version, because that’s what most people seem to believe happened and all of the programming and commemorations, etc.,that are coming up are all going to be based on that version of events. So anyway…

I remember being scared, upset,angry and a whole host of other feelings on that day that I can’t put into words, and then feeling guilty because I didn’t lose anyone on that day, yet I felt as though I had.

So no I don’t want to remember that day. Maybe thta is selfish, maybe that is not the politically correct thing to say, but really, I just don’t want to remember that day. So I’m pretty much doing everything I can not to remember it, and having a newborn kinda makes that an easy thing to do *smile*. So on 9/11 I’ll probably be watching football lol, or sleeping, or taking care of the baby.

Assalamu alaikum/greetings, I will not be watching any of the numerous 9/11 programming/commemorations on TV and radio this week. In fact, I’ve avoided a lot of TV and radio this week, just so I won’t have to hear about it. And truthfully, I’ll be happy once 9/11 has passed. And the reason is simply that there’s nothing I really want to remember about that day. And it would kinda feel like to me that I was reopening a wound that has healed.

Because a few things I can distinctly remember about that day are how scared I was, how I was at my parents’ house all by myself, feeling as though I was watching the worst bad dream I’d ever had come true right in front of my eyes. I remember getting calls and instant messages from people asking me where I was, and when hearing that I was at my parents’ house, telling me to stay there and to not go out of my house as they were hearing reports of women in hijab being attacked.

I remember being told by people to “go back to your country” or “go back to where you came from”, and thinking, hey I’m an American, I have a right to be here, and even if I wasn’t I still have a right to be here and in any case, where am I going to go? What country should I supposedly go back to?

I remember still being relatively new to Islam, and feeling how the terrorists had kinda taken something away from me, how they’d taken such a beautiful religion and made somethign so awful out of it. and no I’m not going to get into whether or not we’re getting the real story about 9/11, I’m addressing the “official” version, because that’s what most people seem to believe happened and all of the programming and commemorations, etc.,that are coming up are all going to be based on that version of events. So anyway…

I remember being scared, upset,angry and a whole host of other feelings on that day that I can’t put into words, and then feeling guilty because I didn’t lose anyone on that day, yet I felt as though I had.

So no I don’t want to remember that day. Maybe thta is selfish, maybe that is not the politically correct thing to say, but really, I just don’t want to remember that day. So I’m pretty much doing everything I can not to remember it, and having a newborn kinda makes that an easy thing to do *smile*. So on 9/11 I’ll probably be watching football lol, or sleeping, or taking care of the baby.

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About Ginny

A blind Muslim woman currently living in Florida, just trying to make sense of the world around me! !
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2 Responses to running Away from 9/11

  1. Ruqayyah says:

    i agree and likewise i am avoiding all of the programming

  2. Linda Jitmoud says:

    I don’t plan to listen to any of the special programs either. It will all be just another exercise in flag waving anyway. I do talk about it though, especially with non-Muslims. I hope I can get through to them. I’ve had some success, and some failure. Some people will never listen.
    I can imagine how frightening it must have been for you as a new Muslim. I had been a Muslim for more than 20 years but the sudden change in the climate really threw me.
    Make du’a that there won’t be any more attacks, either real or false flag, and we can live our lives without fear.

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